- Date: January 22nd, 2020
- Time: 1 pm
- Place: Lienz
On the off chance someone is counting, yes it has been nearly 2 weeks since I posted a diary entry. I literally have no other excuse as plain old tiredness and time issues. There would have been plenty to write about and yet, I was just basically dead each evening and just ready for my shower, some GG and a bad night’s sleep essentially. Bad night’s sleep – that’s a thing now I hear.
Last Sunday, I had to attend a family funeral. I honestly had never attended a funeral on a Sunday before and now I know you need a special permit to have a funeral on a Sunday… the fascinating knowledge I accumulate.
We went by train; the weather was beautiful, and I mentally took more pictures as I could ever have IRL. It was a sudden death in the distant family, we basically knew no one there – which is almost the same for every family funeral these days….
Because I’m in a stress-mess headspace currently, I’m back into biting my nails (I lasted pretty long this time though), so I had to get my nails fixed for the funeral – because from the way I look and dress having fully chewed off nails isn’t exactly rocking with my appearance and it actually makes me feel incredibly insecure too.
I digress again, so I had my nails fixed and not like shellac and done but the full treatment of getting nails that look like nails – and I hate it. It cost a small fortune, it looks hideous (on me – because that type of nail is just not me) and I can’t get them off until I book in to get them taken off and I have no time for that so I have these claws (which they aren’t they a pretty French tip acrylics – still not me) impairing me in just about anything I do. Even trying to write this is impossible because the nails hit about all the wrong keys….
Shallow first world problems, why do I even complain? It’s entirely my fault because I chewed off my OG nails and my own vanity demanded fixed nails.
I’m currently in a bad headspace, truly. It’s not depression, it’s just a case of too-much-on-my-plate-too-little-time-in-the-day. I’m a to-do-list person, it keeps me calm to tick things off and not forget about important things. These lists are a sense of accomplishment for me if nothing else. Lately, I don’t get to finish my lists but keep adding and adding onto my daily to-do’s and I feel a bit defeated lately.
Oscar Season is in full swing, I’m not prepared (I’m not attending, I just do my thing at home – more on this in a Blogpost that is to come). I have 2 big birthdays coming up for two special people in my life and no planning done whatsoever. Good sleep has become a distant memory and lately I turned into full blown worrywart about many things going on in the background.
Currently watching Gourmet Makes on repeat in between GG repeats… what is my life?
Today is the day of the week when I have the afternoon off, but I have sooo much to do. The sun is so beautifully framing the buildings in my hometown. Everything screams at me to have it’s picture taken and I have no time to do so.
Rant over, I’m sure you heavily appreciated it – and yes, I get sarcastic when I’m tired and under caffeinated.
